|Posted by Sabrina on November 17, 2010 at 10:19 PM||comments (0)|
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
There are times in our life when we see things that God has shown us in so many ways, yet we have denied them. We take a different route and find ourselves looking for something that is not there. Sometimes He leads us down a road that we see as something that it is not. For instance, you are walking down the path in which you believe you have a red jacket on and when you get further down the road you find that it is blue. For the longest time you really thought it was red but when you find out it is really blue you kind of feel disappointed, you pine over it for a little while and then get over it and realize this is the color you are supposed to be wearing.
I have come to realize that God will bring us so far and then lead us down a different path. You were only meant to go so far and now He has something else planned for you. Although, we want so bad to finish the task we were previously on we must move forward. Our new path will take us to new and exciting places that will be more uplifting and more enlightening to our journey with God.
I will never leave my God and I know that He is with me always. I am a child, princess, daughter of God almighty and there will be many things and places I will not understand, yet God knows what He is doing and what He has in store for me. I will follow faithfully, for that is what a disciple does.
Be blessed and a blessing,
|Posted by Sabrina on November 11, 2010 at 11:12 PM||comments (0)|
Today is a new day. I graduated from Christian Women's Job Corps last night and although it is very tear jerking that we, ladies, will not be seeing each other everyday like we were, this is a new chapter in my life and I will take hold of it and never let the memories fade away.
We are on our way to Gatesville, Texas to go pick up my stuff that I had left there. I am excited to be able to see my cat, chinchilla and some of the people that impacted my life in a major way. I miss all of them so much and cant wait to say thank you to the people who helped me discover what having a personal relationship with God was really about. Okay, now back to your regular programing.
I was given a book by my mentor last night and I am dedicated myself to read it everyday. It is a devotional called, “100 Favorite Bible Verses for Women” I am excited to work on this book and I pray that what I get from this book will help encourage and enlighten you wonderful people. I say people because, even though it says “Women” I think everyone can benefit from what God shows us in everyday life and through the words of others.
So, lets get started...
Be still and know that I am God; I will be exhaulted among the nations. And will be exhaulted in the earth!
This verse is exactly what I needed for my new adventure in life. Now that Job Corps is over I have a lot more time in my day and even though it is so easy for me to fill my day up with so much; I have to remember to spend time with my God. This is a great time to ask Him what I want to and watch Him work through the things that I know I can't. It is a time for me to receive peace over anything that is troubling me and it is a time for me to reflect on my events and see if there are any amends that need to be made.
I know that sometimes our life gets so busy and we feel like we don't have time to spend sitting down and meditating, but I love what this book says... “Take time to be still in God's vastness. Somehow everything important will get done.” This is so true. There have been many times in my life where I overwhelm myself and don't take time to meditate on what God is trying to show me and I always have to clear my schedule and start over again. I find when I take time to meditate on His word, my day goes a lot better and it brings a peace to my day. I know that He is with me and that I can overcome so many things throughout my day.
Now, as most of you know I am day by day person. I can only worry about today because tomorrow might never come. That doesn't mean I don't plan things, yet I know that today is what matters and if I can get through today I will be good. I am happy my God put days in 24hour increments because I know that He knows that is all we can handle. I am so grateful that I have a father that loves me enough to know, as a human, I need rest.
May these words bless you today, tomorrow, and forever! In Jesus name!
--Sabrina N Lee
Update: So, we have just left Gatesville and as wonderful as it was to see my Beth, my cat, and my chinchlla 2 hours in this town is long enough. LOL I unfortunetly has to leave my cat once again, but I know that soon we will be together again. I missed her so much and she looks healthy. Chasing mice has really been good to her, but I am not going to lie, I totally cried before I left. I have had that cat since she was a baby and it has been so hard to keep leaving her with other people. Although, she is well taken care of the mom in me is crying out to God that He bring her back to me soon.
Tarps are the most horrible invention ever made by man... and they stink lol.
I am sleepy and can't wait to get home and relax. I want to show my love to my sister and future bro-in-law, but I am not sure how. I guess just staying in a right path with the Lord is good enough for them, but when I am successful in whatever I choose to pursue, I will make sure they are well taken care of. I love them and all my family because they are so supportive and always show God's love as much as humanly possible.
God bless everyone, Sabrina Lee
|Posted by Sabrina on October 19, 2010 at 11:11 PM||comments (0)|
"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor[a] and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies[b] and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. f you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
There are times when I think about what is going on around me and find myself being attacked by what people say and do. When I think about these things I have to remember that is not them and what I am feeling is satan trying to bring me down. People do not see what is really going on and do not realize that I am being attacked. Sometimes, they think they are just being the same as they have always been.
The feelings and urges of being upset and angry are what satan wants me to feel. When I do this and do not stand on the WORD then I am giving him authority over my life. I know my God is loving, kind, and has conquered the grave. He has one the battle and He says that we can win the battle against evil every time. This is truth and nothing can come against me and prevail because I am a child of the Most High, the ruler of heaven and earth, creator of all things and the ultimate ruler.
I stand on these words in the name of Jesus! Nothing will ever come against me and I will conquer all evil for my Father, God gives me this right and no one will ever tell me other wise! I love all of my Father's creations and even though they may not walk as I do and talk as I do and even though they may hurt me at times. I am learning to be quick to forgive because sometimes they do not even know what they are saying is hurtful.
LIGHT COME FORTH!
Praise the Almighty God!
|Posted by Sabrina on October 10, 2010 at 2:35 AM||comments (0)|
Do not be like the people who idolize things that can't give them eternal life, but be blessed and know that God is truth and you can trust Him. Do this and be blessed, your family will be blessed because of it.
God has been there for your through so much. He has brought you out of darkness. He has given you peace where there was none. You are ALIVE not dead. Be Faithful although you feel bedeviled.
God has been there for us through thick and thin. He has given us strength and courage to overcome what we thought we couldn't Glory be to God; He is always faithful and never leaves our side. The things He does is so unbelievable that we can hardly contain all the joy He brings and we can't even fathom the love He has for us.
|Posted by Sabrina on October 4, 2010 at 5:23 PM||comments (0)|
So, I wanted to share something with you that is quite difficult for me to share. The other day I was having an issue and this issue triggered something even more crazy. I don't know if you have ever read Joyce Meyer's book “Battlefield of the Mind”, but this was a serious battle in my mind. What happens when you truly battling both sides of your mind? I'm fixing to tell you.
So, Friday night I was working and my pants ripped (yes, I know its funny don't get me started. Just get the laughing out now...oh serious face) Anyway, I called someone to come get me and got a little discouraged because they didn't really want to and was kind of going back and forth with me. (mind you I was already irritated) I went to Wal-mart and got new pants and the battle had started. In my head I was thinking this person really doesn't want to help you and if you go to a different town you can start over and people won't treat you like this(old habit). I told myself no and I tried to stop thinking about it. I am a child of God and running away will not help that was my old lifestyle and I am not doing that anymore.
Next, I got into the car and as we where driving home I started thinking. This new lifestyle isn’t working and even though I know it is right I don’t feel right. Ok, so here I am arguing with myself. I know my old lifestyle doesn’t work because I on the losing end of the stick, but this new lifestyle doesn’t seem to be working either. I really didn’t know what to do I physically felt the pain of my body and soul tearing apart. I started praying over and over that God help me to understand what is right in His eyes. That he give me the strength to overcome this battle, give me PEACE! He brought to my mind the time when Satan tempted Jesus for 40days and the torture Jesus went through in that time. I mean think about the serious mind battle going on in Jesus' mind. Yes, He was Holy, but He was also human. And then God says you must strive to be Christ-like and then a calm came over me. I lay down and watched Fireproof and fell asleep with the love of Jesus in my heart and by the grace of God!!! PRAISE HIM!!!
|Posted by Sabrina on October 2, 2010 at 5:55 PM||comments (0)|
“...and repentance and forgiveness of sins will be preached in his name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem.” - Luke 24v47
I touch on the subject of forgiveness a lot. There is only one reason, because forgiveness is a key. You may say, a key to what, Sabrina? It is a key to healing. Matthew 11v25 says, “and when you assume the posture of prayer, remember that its not all about asking. If you have anything against someone, forgive – only then will your heavenly Father be inclined to also wipe your slate lean of sins.” You can find forgiveness in Christ and through Him you can learn to forgive others.
You know my testimony and I had a lot of hurts in my life. When I look at what I have been through and what people have done to me, it makes it hard for me to forgive. Yet, I think about what God has forgiven me for and how much He loves me after all I have done to Him and others in my life. HE FORGIVES ME! Knowing this and daily telling myself that this is TRUTH helps me in order to forgive others, because the things that they do to me aren't half as bad as what I have done to God.
Another point I want to go over is blame. I really cannot stand the blame game. The way I see it, everything is a choice and no one can make the choice but you. I used to constantly blame other people for the choice I made and the paths that I took. Why do we feel the need to blame everyone else for things that we put ourselves through. Case in point-- God, why do we think that God is the on putting us through things. The bible tells us that God tempts no man. (James 1v13 paraphrased) He does allow things to happen for many different reasons but I can guaranty you it is only for good. That is how I think about everything that happens to me... “Ok, Sabrina, calm down and think straight there is a reason this is happening to me. I just have to cry out to Him, and trust that He will make all things right for His purpose and glory.
Another case in point-- I used to blame my dad and step-mom for the reason I left and for the the reason I did not have a relationship with my little sister. This was not truth. I could have stayed and been obedient to what my dad wanted and I would have stayed home, in school and had some type of relationship with my little sister. I made the choice to leave and I was always worried about myself and never took time to think about how this was effecting my sister. In the end we need to make amends and completely forgive the situations we went through with people. I know it is hard, believe me! And you might be thinking, “ oh Sabrina but you don't know what they did to me!” IT DOES NOT MATTER!!!! Think about all the things you haven't been doing for your Heavenly Father! Being disobident, lusting over others, worshiping things and people (idolizing), being rude to the person just because they screwed up your order in the drive through on a day that was going from bad to worse. You are not much different from those people who have hurt you. The only big difference you may have God in your life and you can change your reaction to what happened. You can't do anything about their reaction but you can do something about yours!
Thank you for your time and God bless!
|Posted by Sabrina on September 28, 2010 at 11:21 PM||comments (0)|
I had a great morning, I got up at 530 showered and went back to sleep. I woke up at 730 and got ready for CWJC. I walked to Job Corps, its only down the street, and I had a good morning. I talked to someone about some concerns of mine from a situation I am going through and we prayed. I went back to class and when we had a break she asked to talk to me. She informed me that I missed my dentist appt and that I need to call and apologize. I said I was planning on it. I told her I needed to go to across the street and get my voulcher for my glasses, but I didn't have a ride to where I needed to go. She said if I go after class she would take me where I need to get to. So I go through my day ok and when class ended I went across the street and it took about 30 mins. I went back to the job corp to find that it was locked and everyone was gone. I had left my bag on the table and my laptop was in it so you know I was upset lol (I'm a gadget freak and cant live with out being connected) I called to see if anyone was in the building still and left a message letting her know I did come back. I walked to my house (I only live a few blocks away) and I was still very upset. I needed to talk to someone, anyone! I called my aunt and she came to pick me up to go work out and it felt like she was mad at me. For the next 4 hours I felt angry and upset. I wanted to run and by run I mean move to another town and start over. I faught what I was feeling because I know my feelings can lie to me, So, I chose to go through the motions (my day) and just keep talking and crying out to the Lord to take what I was feeling away. I called everyone I could think of and in the end I got a friend on the phone and told her what I was going through, she gave me some pointers and then I met with a friend at Taco Casa and talked about it again. I was feeling a little better but I still felt like it wasn't resolved. I had a Righteousness class to go to and I really didn't want to go because I was still a little upset and didn't feel like I should. Right then, I remembered that someone told me that when I didn't want to go fellowship is when I needed fellowship because then I was going to receive something AWESOME! So, I went to my class. BOY WAS I RIGHT! When Jeff asked if anyone in the class ever felt unrighteous I said, “ OH YA!” lol I knew that this one night was just for me and I received so much from it. I was free and It felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. The rest of my night was full of peace and thank you God for wonderful godly friends there to help me in my time of need! YAY GOD!
|Posted by Sabrina on September 19, 2010 at 2:52 PM||comments (0)|
Do not be misled: Bad company corrupts good character. 1 Corinthians 15:33 NIV
There is so much influence in the world today and one thing that a Christian must do is stay away from what will take you away from the Lord. We see what the world is doing and feel like there is no way to get away from it. As I have been learning in CWJC, our feelings can be lie to us.
God is truth and if what we see and do is not in line with scripture then we need to remove if from our lives. God hates sin and if you are doing the same things you were before you were saved and not trying to change your way of thinking and living there is no way that God can bless you in any area of your life, let alone use you to bless others.
There are many people out there that think... I don't know why so many bad things are happening to me when I am saved, I know the Lord, I know scripture, I know God's love, I go to church. I have said this before and many times more. It is not just about going through the motions, but living what scripture says. It is a daily battle to renew your mind/thinking (Romans 12v2). We have lived in sin for so long that we do not see what is really going on. There is a better way to live and we have to start at home(ourselves). Once you start living parallel to scripture you will find a change in your environment. Yes, there will be a lot of people that will not want to talk to you, disown you, and call you a holy roller. If they do this or if you are afraid they will do this to you then they are not your true friends. They should be happy for you that you are making a change in your life for the better. They should love you for being who you choose to be and they should not despise you for not being that partier that you used to be.
For the friends that are accepting to your change, you will find a similar change in them. It is like a forest fire. It starts somewhere and then in a matter of time you will notice the whole forest is ablaze. Be that fire starter. Change your attitude, the way you think, what you do in your day, and especially what you say. When you do this people will not know what to think, and more than likely they will ask questions about why you are different. Ummm... GREAT WAY TO WITNESS TO THEM.
We seem to think that what peoples opinions of us are what matters, when in reality it is only what God thinks of us that truly matters. He is our Creator, our Father, our Provider, our healer and no one can even compare to his status. He is the one we will be judged by when Jesus shows Himself again! If we want favor we need to change the way we live our lives RIGHT NOW and not wait till it is convenient for us. We need to stop thinking God is with us when we know that we are living in sin. There is so much that we could do in order to change our daily walk in the world to reflect Christ. Here are just a few things that I do to ensure that I walk with God on a daily basis.
- Pray every chance I get for everything I think of.
- Choose to have one Godly conversation with anyone during the day.
- Listen to Christian music to keep my spirit fed.
- Ask myself, “is this something that would glorify God?”
|Posted by Sabrina on August 15, 2010 at 9:38 PM||comments (0)|
I know that sometimes I am too much. Too much heart, too much carelessness, too much jealousy, too much love. I see these things in myself and I want to scream, “I'm exhausted!” I hate that I feel this way because I know that you have done so much for me and you never said, this is TOO MUCH.
Sometimes I am so exhausted at looking for work and not getting calls back that I just want to go away and not come back, but since you have redeemed me I think to myself... that is wrong. I can't do that because there have been so many people that have trusted in me to do the right thing for myself and for you Lord that I would never be able to face them ever again. I want to help others find their way to you and know of you unconditional love for them. I want to be that person that you want me to be Lord.
You made me for a reason and you allowed me to go through so much strife so that I can be a witness to people and say, “I know, I went through that too, but God has saved me from self destruction.” I want to cry out “I LOVE YOU!” to the world and sometimes I want to cry out “WHY DON'T YOU WANT HIS LOVE!” Why can't it be easy for people to just believe in you and know that you are there for them? Why do we try so hard to fight the feelings we know are real and it is so easy to accept the feelings that aren't?
Everyday I die from my past life and the things that have held me back from a relationship with you. Every time I know that I have overcome something that was so difficult for me to overcome before I praise You, because I know that if I didn't know of Your grace and love for me that I would not be able to overcome anything. I would not want to ever go back to the way I was before. I want to be happy, joyful and loving to others. I can't stand being so upset all the time and not at peace with anything that I do. I am so grateful that you have shown me mercy and that you have enabled me to share with others your wonderful works in my life.
Thank you Lord for all you do and keep doing in my undeserving heart. I praise you Lord everyday no matter what happens!
|Posted by Sabrina on August 15, 2010 at 4:48 PM||comments (0)|
I love the way God shows us the how andwhere's in life. I have been living in Kerrville for going on 3 weeks now andalthough I have not found a job, yet, I have found my church home. There aremany people that wonder how to find a church home and to tell you the truth itisn't usually as easy as it has been for me in the past.
Now, depending on your denomination youmay have a variety of churches you can attend before God leads you to where Hewants you to be. I enjoy non-denominational churches, for the simple fact thatthey are more casual and fellowship with others is more open. People seem to bevery friendly and love getting to know one another. These are the first thingsI look at when I find a church home because the bible tells us that we needfellowship (Hebrews 10v24) and if it hard to get to know people in your churchfamily how will you be able to reach out to others and do God's work(witnessing). This is just my opinion.
Next I look at what they teach. Are theyusing the bible? This is very important in a church community because theybible does tell us that God's word is the only thing we should be learningfrom. Everything we need to know is in the bible and Pastors and ministers (Ibelieve we are all ministers) should all teach from this book and no other.
I also look at their belief statement.This always should be what you believe and supportive about. If it isn't youshould find a church that has the same beliefs as you do. I love churches thatstate that they are about getting into the community, spreading the word toothers and making a difference for the glory of God.
These are the main things I look at whenI visit a church that I am considering to make my home church. I used not evenlook for a home church when I moved to a new place, but the more God shows methat I have a great purpose the more I realize it is essential to have one.There are many people that have an issue committing to a certain church. Idon't really understand why, but having a church family and being involved inthe church (in my opinion) helps me to draw close to God.
Thank you for your time,